Chin up.
I see slightly younger friends of mine going through everything I’ve already been through, and I get bummed out. Maybe because I’m used to getting bad news, I could have ADD, but probably because I had experienced so much so young.
I wish I could sit with him (drink vodka) and lay out my previous path in chronological context. He’s taken shots at all the same things I have, but is now wishing things were different. It’s like poor ass musicians are a psychological profile I have a a PhD in. I’ve done a lot of starving traveling with bands, had a few drug habits, hit bottom, and bounced back up.
But is it my place to seek him out? I’m realizing because of “church” that all my friendly sensibilities already fall into the category of a Christian, but I don’t think I care enough to inject him if he’s not open to discussion of failure.
I’m not a stranger to failure, but I’m not a stranger to spinning the situation. I’ve turned my out of control life in to a series of small parties and more focused writing spurts.
I think there just comes a point when you want something else. But I never wanted anything else, so I just had to go about it differently.
Now, I’m happier than ever.
